I know yesterday’s post is probably not what you’re used to seeing here on Darlin’ Rae, and I wanted to take a minute to address that instead of jumping manically from yesterday’s difficult topic to the app review post I had scheduled for today.
I try to keep it positive most of the time, because nobody wants to hang out with a Debbie Downer. And it can be scary or uncomfortable to talk about things like body image, self-esteem, and eating disorders. I’ve started and stopped posts similar to what I wrote yesterday countless times, but always held back because I almost feel that I don’t really have anything new or constructive to add. Body image has been discussed so many times in so many different forums I feel like the reaction is “Yup, ok, we get it, move on, please.” But it’s really important for me to be able to be real and honest here. It’s easy in the internet world to pretend like everything is sunshine and rainbows all the time. To present only the best parts of yourself to your readers. But that’s not reality. Everyone struggles sometimes, and I don’t want to ever pretend that I’m someone I’m not.
I feel like I’ve found an incredibly supportive community here, and I felt safe enough to share something that I usually keep locked up pretty tight. Not every day is great. Not every workout makes me feel good. I (like most people, I imagine) have a hard time loving myself 100% of the time. But I’d say that at least 98% of the time, I do. And that’s why 98% of the posts here will be positive. But sometimes, I just need to be sad, or angry, or frustrated. And I hope you’re cool with that, because I expect the same from all of you.
I promise that tomorrow we’ll get back to the normal stuff. I’ve got lots of fun stuff to talk about in my Friday Free For All, and I’m very excited about my plans for the holiday weekend. I have an app review ready to go, and I’m putting together a brief review of the hydration belt I’m currently using as well. I hope you have a lovely Thursday!