On Monday morning, thousands of runners will be toeing the line at the Tufts Health Plan 10k for Women. It runs through the streets of Boston and surrounding areas, and usually has somewhere around 6,000 registered runners/walkers. I worked for Tufts Health Plan in Watertown, MA for almost three years. As an employee of THP, I could have gotten a free entry to the race every year. But I never did.
Each summer, as registration opened up, I would think to myself, “This is the year! I’m gonna do it! I can do it!” And then I’d hit the treadmill and suffer through two miles, and think, “There’s no way I can run 6.2 miles. Forget it. I don’t want to embarrass myself.” Two of my colleagues were in the top 5 male and female finishers every year, and I didn’t want to be compared to them. I wasn’t a “runner,” whatever that means.
Now, of course, a 10k is totally doable, and I’m absolutely kicking myself for never having done the race when I could have done it for free. I really regret that I doubted myself so much, that I let fear of failure stop me from doing something I really wanted to do. It is my goal to someday go back and run that 10k, just to fulfill the dreams of old, non-runner me. I feel like it would really help me celebrate how far I’ve come with my running–from not being able to even imagine running a 10k to having completed a half marathon, and signing up for another one. It’s really easy to lose perspective and get caught up in paces and times, and worry about progress and being faster and stronger. I want to make sure I never lose sight of how amazing it is that I do what I do, regardless of how fast or slow I go.
Tufts Health Plan 10k for Women 2015: I’m coming for you!
Do you have a race that you’d like to conquer, just to prove you can?
Who wants to run this one with me??