Linking up with Amanda from Running with Spoons again this Thursday, to continue my series of non-running related posts.
Last Thursday, I wrote a lot about stuff not at all related to running. My post was all about singing, and staying vocally healthy. As I teased last week, the careful consideration that I have been bringing to my theater activities has got some wheels turning about chasing my passions.
I gave up the dream of performing for a living a long time ago; I’m not courageous enough to deal with the constant rejection, and I like having a steady paycheck. But performing is still something I’m incredibly passionate about, and would like to do more of, on a more professional scale. Newsflash: I don’t get paid for any of the shows I do right now (although I have been in the past); they’ve all been purely volunteer-based, which is great, but I think I’m capable of more. Just like with running, I’d like to push myself outside my comfort zone and see where it gets me. I want to dedicate more of my time and money to things like voice lessons, dance lessons, and acting classes.
Vermont may be small, but there are some great professional theater companies that I’ve always wanted to work with, but have been too chicken to try. Even though I’ve been doing this since I was 9 years old, I’m straight up terrified of auditioning. I get nervous and stressed out and I’m an emotional wreck. I’m scared of failing, so I won’t try. And that’s crap. I’m tired of not doing what I want to do because fear of failure is holding me back.
I think if Chess goes well, it’s going to give a lot of local theater people a chance to see me in a new way. I’ve never had a leading role in a show in this area, and I’m hopeful that this increased exposure will lead to more connections and opportunities.
A lot of these feelings about pushing beyond my comfort zone and chasing my passion can also be applied to my running/fitness and long-term career goals, but that’s a post for next Thursday 😉
Are you chasing a passion that’s not related to running?