I’m experiencing some, shall we say, ennui, when it comes to running lately. My motivation has gone out the window. The last two weeks, I’ve only run twice each week. I’m mailing it in a bit. I think there are a few factors at play here.
First of all, I’ve decided not to do another fall half marathon. I couldn’t justify the cost, and I didn’t want to chance hurting myself before Wine and Dine, which I’ve been looking forward to for over a year, and which cost me a fortune to arrange. Because I’m no longer looking at a PR attempt or even really racing a half this fall, I don’t really feel the need to be aggressively training. I’m just sort of mailing in some long runs and calling it good.
Secondly, this year has just been so cuckoo-bananas busy that I’m really resistant to “having” to do something, even if it’s something I technically enjoy. I resent having to run so many miles on a certain day. I resent having to spend additional time before or after work running when all I want to do is veg out in my PJs and watch Netflix with a glass of wine in hand. I’ve been enjoying snuggling my cats, making dinner with my husband, and seeing my long-neglected friends. It seems like I’d rather be doing anything else but running right now.
Thirdly, and I think least of my current issues, is that the days are getting shorter. When a few months ago I could have gotten up at 5:30 and done 4 miles before work, it’s now pitch dark at 5:30 am. And it’s also pitch dark by 7:30 pm, if not earlier. I don’t have a headlamp, or reflective vest, or any of those other tools that make running in the dark safe, which means that I don’t run in the dark. Which means that if I don’t run immediately after work or on my lunch break, I don’t run at all during the week.
Honestly, I don’t even feel guilty that I’m not running much right now. I’m still hitting Body Pump regularly, I’ve got tap class once a week, and I’m getting my long runs in, so I’m not a total wastrel. I’m just gonna let this wave of indifference ride, and I’m sure I’ll eventually find my motivation again. For now, I’ll just enjoy Netflix and wine.
How do you handle lack of motivation?