Dogfight Post-Mortem

Whew. Three weeks of shows for Dogfight the musical have come to an end, and I’ve got SO MANY thoughts and feelings, so I decided to do a little post-show brain dump.

As I’ve already said a couple of times, this rehearsal process was not that great. I was so, so excited for this show, and pretty much every rehearsal had me doubting that it was ever going to come together. Mercifully, it did, and the end product actually turned out to be pretty good in spite of all of the crap, which is great. As always, a show ending is bittersweet. I’ll miss the music. I’ll miss my friends. I’ll miss performing. But BOY am I ready for a break.

This experience really threw some things into focus for me. I have a good friend who talks a lot about process vs product. Sometimes, it doesn’t matter how crappy the process is because the product is so good. And sometimes, the process is so crappy that it totally sours the product. Or the product isn’t super great but you have lots of fun working on it. In the case of Dogfight, we ended up with a good product, but the process sucked.

Going through this made me realize that I’m really, really over committing myself to projects that aren’t challenging and fulfilling. Yes, the music for this show was amazing, and I’m really glad I got to sing it, but I’m not sure that all the time I spent being stressed out, frustrated, and anxious was really worth it. Not to mention all of the time spent driving to and from Stowe, and the money I spent on gas, costume pieces, and makeup. Maybe it’s not for me to say, but I feel like I’m ready to be consistently performing at a higher level, and not just taking every opportunity that comes my way. At Stowe, I’m a big fish in a tiny pond, but I feel like I’m capable of being a medium-to-big fish in a bigger pond.

Unfortunately, this decision that my time and talent are worth more is coming a bit late, in the sense that I’m likely on the cusp of taking a fairly long break from performing in order to try and start a family. All I can hope is that there are better opportunities for me when I get back to it. I’m also already feeling the FOMO for all of the shows I may miss due to pregnancy and having a child. Expect a post expanding on this soon.

Until the next audition, I definitely plan to do all I can to keep improving. It’s really expensive, but I’m hoping to get back to voice lessons this fall, and maybe a dance class too. In order to do CrossFit, voice lessons, and dance classes, I will definitely need to do some pretty serious budget-trimming, but I’m ready to make the commitment, both in time and money, to things I’m passionate about.

On that note, as I teased in my July wrap up post, I have officially joined the PR and Development Committee for Lyric Theatre Company. I’ve been doing shows with them since 2002, and while I genuinely love and appreciate the organization for all it has given me and the community, there are of course things about how they operate that I think could be better. And rather than just bitching about it, I think it’s time I get more involved and actually work within the organization to help make it better. It will be nice to maintain an active role in the organization even if I’m not able to perform for a while.

Friday Free-For-All – 08/04/17

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Holy crap it’s August. I mean, seriously. I know I say this pretty much every month, but I feel like July didn’t even really happen. I’m not happy about the fact that summer is almost over already. Boooooo.

It’s the last week of shows for Dogfight. We’ve got one tonight, and one more tomorrow. This show ending is even more bittersweet than usual. Bitter because I love the music and show so much, and because this may be my last show for quite some time if we get pregnant. Sweet because the rehearsal process was so frustrating, and I’m EXHAUSTED from doing two shows in a row. I’m just trying to enjoy every last minute. On that note…

My bestie and her husband are coming to see the show tomorrow! Mandy and Vinny live in Jersey, so I only get to see them once or twice a year. They’re making the 6+ hour trek up to see Dogfight tomorrow night and I’m so excited and so grateful. I can’t wait to see them!

Ben is officially on the last leg of his whirlwind summer tour. He’s currently in Prague visiting his sister Emily, and he’ll be home for good on the 10th. And I can’t. Freaking. Wait. Of course I’m happy that he got to enjoy his summer break and have lots of adventures, but I missed him! And I’m also very excited to go get pre-approved for a mortgage and start house hunting in earnest. Whee!

I know this is really silly, but I have recently had a delightful string of celebrity interactions on Twitter and Instagram. Or, people I consider celebrities. Specifically, Broadway stars. One of my idols, Stephanie J Block, replied to my tweet about her upcoming Live from Lincoln Center performance. Caesar Samoyoa, a member of the cast of Come From Away, replied to my response to his tweet about the new immersive Star Wars experience coming to WDW. And Mamie Parris, who is playing Grizabella in Cats on Broadway, liked a comment I made on one of her Instagram photos. It’s SO INDESCRIBABLY CHEESY, I know, but I love it nonetheless.

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Happy Friday!

 

 

Gearing Up For Show Week #2

Hey friends! I have gotten lots of sleep, exercise, and Ben time since last Wednesday’s post, and I’m feeling much more like myself.

The first week of shows was a bit rocky, but by the fourth show on Saturday it felt like we’d found our stride. I was completely exhausted after 7 straight days of rehearsals and shows, but I had all day Sunday off, plus Monday and Tuesday evenings.

On Sunday, I got out for a 10k long run (which I live blogged in my IG stories, which seemed to be a hit), and then Ben and I spent the afternoon hiking a steep trail on Mt. Mansfield. We got creemees on the way home, and had a nice supper with his folks before lights out at 9:30 pm.

Monday night was another restful night, with a roast chicken dinner and Rogue One on Netflix before another early bedtime.

Last night I hit up my first CrossFit class in almost two weeks, and then Ben and I did one more date night before he takes off on the second-to-last trip of the summer. We went to our member’s club, St. John’s Club, for an al fresco dinner on the patio, and then watched Sherlock together in our PJs. It was easy, cheap, and a perfect way to spend our last night together before he heads off for another week and a half.

Tonight kicks off the second weekend of shows for Dogfight, and after taking several days of vocal rest, I’m feeling ready to get back on stage. Even though I didn’t expect it to, this show has felt every bit as vocally demanding as Chess, even though the style of singing is a lot less difficult. Maybe it’s because I have more lines? Who knows. Regardless, I’m ready to kick some ass tonight.

Isn’t it amazing what some extra sleep and down time can do?

Friday Free-For-All – 07/21/17

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BEN COMES HOME TODAY! For like, three whole days! This will be the longest he’s been home since July 1, and I am STOKED. He’s coming to see the show tomorrow, and then we are both actually home on Sunday, so I’m hoping we can just do an “us” day and hang out and relax together.

I took yesterday off and slept for 11 hours after opening night. I needed that, so badly. I’ve been feeling exhausted and emotional lately, so getting a bit caught up on sleep was 100% necessary. I felt like a new woman after spending pretty much all day parked on my tush.

Dogfight is going surprisingly well. I was very, very nervous about opening, but so far, so good. We had decent audiences for our first two shows, and I’m hopeful that as word of mouth spreads, we’ll have bigger crowds. At least one woman told me last night that she’s coming back, and bringing friends, which is always encouraging!

I’M GOING TO BROADWAYCON!! What is BroadwayCon, you ask? Well, it’s like ComicCon, but for Broadway. I’ve wanted to go the last two years but just couldn’t swing it. Since I’m not doing Disney this year (sadface), I decided to do BwayCon instead. I’m going with my friend Sarah. We’re going to take the train down, and she found an INCREDIBLE deal on a hotel a 10 minute walk from the convention center. I sprung for the “Gold” pass, which gets me some fun perks, including three guaranteed photo/autograph sessions with Broadway stars. I can’t freaking wait!

Have you ever gone to a convention like ComicCon? Which one?

Friday Free-For-All – 07/14/17

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Have I mentioned lately that I miss Ben? Yeah, I miss him. He was home for approximately 24 hours on Sunday into Monday, and then promptly took off for the next leg of his crazy, jam-packed summer. The first week was sort of, “Meh, whatever, I can deal.” But this week was a lot harder. And this is just the beginning. I will maybe see him for a few hours this weekend, and then won’t see him again until the 22nd. Ugh.

Things with Dogfight are slowly but surely improving. It’s no longer the train wreck I feared it would be, and we still have 3 more rehearsals before we open. I’m just still very nervous about playing guitar onstage and singing at the same time. We may have someone play backstage while I pretend to play, but I’m not sure how much better that will be. Also, I change ON STAGE not once but twice, once WHILE singing, so yeah, I have a lot of stuff to figure out. Oy. Speaking of Dogfight…

We did another live TV promo like I did for Chess. I had to stay overnight in Stowe and get up at 4:15 am to do some live promotional segments on our local news station. I know it’s an important thing to get the word out, but man, live TV is terrifying, having my face and voice on the internet forever is terrifying, and doing it before I’ve even finished a cup of coffee just isn’t fair. If you’re interested in seeing/hearing me sing some stuff from the show, click here!

I am so. freaking. tired. Tonight will be my first night off all week, and I can’t wait to go home and just do NOTHING. The whole fam is away at the family reunion in Maine, so I’m home alone again with the animals. I woke up at 4 am after a loud noise, convinced there was someone in the house, and lay there panicking for a solid 15 minutes before realizing Creemee was just going to town on her scratching post. Oof. I’m sleeping forever tomorrow. FOREVER.