Friday Free-For-All – 01/25/19

Friday Free-For-All

My favorite black leggings have several holes in them. I know, I know, what a first world problem, right? I’ve had them for going on three years now so it’s not like this is unexpected, but I wear these leggings multiple times a week. I got them when I was working at Athleta and still had a sweet discount. I can’t really afford to replace them right now, and I’ve never found a basic black legging that I liked as much. Not having an income is a huge bummer.

I had my first rehearsal for the Disney princess show I’m in on Tuesday. I’m very, very excited for this show, but also feeling a bit nervous because I haven’t been singing regularly for a while, so I’m rusty. Add to that the fact that I’m singing one of the most well-known and challenging songs in the Disney universe (Let it Go), and I’m a bit of a mess. I’m just trying to give myself time to get back in vocal shape and not freak out.

Vera had her six-month well child visit this week. She’s actually already almost seven months old, but our pediatrician is VERY popular and her schedule books up quickly. Our little girl is still a peanut–she’s 17th percentile for weight and 19th for height. Otherwise, though, she’s healthy and thriving and that’s what matters. She’s hitting all of the developmental milestones she should, so we’re happy.

I’m trying to “train” my hair to go longer between washes. One of the runners I follow on IG mentioned this in her stories, so I clicked over to the hairdresser she said she was following. This woman has gone up to 33 days without washing her hair. THIRTY THREE! And it still looked good! I’m not saying I want to go that long between washes (and with my fine hair and greasy scalp, I doubt I could), but right now I have to wash every other day. It’s just not very convenient when I have a lot of hair that takes a while to dry, it’s cold and wintry, and I have a small baby to take care of. If I could get to a place where I wash every three or four days, that would be ideal. Let’s see how it goes! I’m about to get very friendly with dry shampoo. And possibly hats, haha!

Have you ever heard of hair training? How often do you wash your hair?

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Friday Free-For-All – 01/11/19

Friday Free-For-All

The #rbdrunstreak2019 is still going strong! I’m now 11 days in and feeling really good. I’m focusing on doing plenty of stretching and rolling, and trying to alternate “longer” runs with single mile days. I definitely feel like my stamina is improving, and I’m starting to feel like a runner again. I like it!

I did a couple of small car “maintenance” projects that have been on my list FOREVER. First, I changed the bulb in the overhead light. You know, the one that turns on when you open the car door? Ours blew a while ago, and it’s crazy how much you actually need that little light during dark winter nights, especially with a baby and all the attendant crap in the car. I also changed the auto-unlock settings. Since we bought our car, the settings have been that when we turn the car off, ONLY the driver’s door automatically unlocks, which is not a big deal, but can be inconvenient, especially, again, with a baby. Nothing is more annoying than trying to open the door to put the car seat in and having the door still be locked. I’m SO HAPPY to have done these two things. The last thing on my list is to get the battery in my fob replaced so I can use the lock/unlock buttons again. That’s another one of those things that becomes kind of important when you’re juggling a car seat, diaper bag, purse, and shopping bags.

Instagram targeted ads totally got me. I ordered a SheFit Apparel Ultimate Sports Bra last week after seeing them advertised. As has been covered pretty much ad nauseum on this blog, I am a busty runner, and have a hard time finding sports bras that cover the nexus of affordability, comfort, and support. The SheFit has pretty awesome fit and support, and a decent price, but I’m having some chafing issues at the moment. Stay tuned for a full review later.

I was cast in a show this week! It’s a Disney princesses and villains cabaret for kids. I am super rusty, so I just went in with zero expectations, more to get the feel for auditioning again and see my friends than with any thought that I might be cast. But lo, and behold, I got it! And I’m singing Let it Go from Frozen and Mother Knows Best from Tangled. No pressure, right? I can’t wait for rehearsals to start!

Have you ever changed the settings on your car or changed a bulb yourself?

The FOMO is Real

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I don’t suffer too much from FOMO as far as social events go. I’m a bit of an introvert, and usually I’m pretty happy to just be hanging out at home with my cats and my husband. I’m generally happy when plans fall through or people bail, because it means I don’t have to put on pants and a bra and leave the house.

The only things I get true FOMO about are shows. Namely, shows that I want to audition for but somehow don’t work with my schedule, or could have auditioned for and didn’t and now I’m missing out on the experience. This FOMO is what has led to me doing two shows back-to-back on numerous occasions, even when I was exhausted and it probably would have been better to just take a season off.

As I contemplate our (hopefully) impending pregnancy, I’m ALREADY obsessing over the shows and theatre opportunities I might miss. For instance, Lyric Theatre Company’s fall show A Christmas Story the Musical is auditioning right now. The music is by Pasek and Paul, of Dear Evan Hansen and Dogfight fame. There’s a GREAT part for me. And the rumor mill is suggesting that audition turnout hasn’t been that great, meaning that I stand a very strong chance of getting the part I want. SO TEMPTING. Obviously I’m not auditioning because hello I need a break. But this is just the tip of the iceberg.

What if a local company does a show I really, really love while I’m 6 months pregnant, or I’ve got an infant child dependent on breast milk? I live in a relatively small city in a small state and some opportunities literally only come up once in a lifetime. I only have so many years left where it’s feasible for me to be cast in RENT, or The Last Five Years. Dogfight is a perfect example–it was the first time the show had ever been performed in Vermont, and due to the fact that it’s a small, not well-known show that never made it to Broadway, it might be YEARS before it’s produced in the area again, if ever, at which point, I will be too old to play Rose. I got lucky on this one.

I just can’t seem to shut off the nagging voice in my head that’s telling me to run out RIGHT NOW and audition for anything and everything I can until I’m too pregnant to pass as non-pregnant. I’m exhausted and burned out and have SO MUCH TO DO but I can’t help but think “What if I don’t get to do another show for a year? Two years? THREE YEARS?” I play mind games with myself, like, “You might not even get pregnant the first month. Or second. Or third. You could totally do a show this fall.” Which is INSANE! Cause if I do get pregnant right away, I’d be working a full time job AND rehearsing 15+ hours a week during my first trimester. That sounds terrible. But then, that devil’s advocate again. “If you don’t get pregnant by January, you can TOTALLY audition for the spring show.” I can’t stop.

Obviously, starting a family is my priority, and once you have a child/children, you’re simply going to miss some things. That’s how it goes. I get it. I’m sure once I have my own actual child, I will be a lot less worried about FOMO and more worried about keeping said child clean and fed and happy than “Oh, man, I could be rehearsing 20 hours a week right now.” I firmly believe that having children won’t preclude me from pursuing my passions. I have a loving, supportive husband who wants me to do what makes me happy. We are a team, so it’s not like I have to worry about, “Oh, well Ben can’t handle the kids without me.” That’s silly. It will just take some time to adjust to life with children. And I truly can’t wait. I just need to tell the FOMO to kindly shut the hell up.

Do you ever suffer from Fear of Missing Out? How do you handle it?

Dogfight Post-Mortem

Whew. Three weeks of shows for Dogfight the musical have come to an end, and I’ve got SO MANY thoughts and feelings, so I decided to do a little post-show brain dump.

As I’ve already said a couple of times, this rehearsal process was not that great. I was so, so excited for this show, and pretty much every rehearsal had me doubting that it was ever going to come together. Mercifully, it did, and the end product actually turned out to be pretty good in spite of all of the crap, which is great. As always, a show ending is bittersweet. I’ll miss the music. I’ll miss my friends. I’ll miss performing. But BOY am I ready for a break.

This experience really threw some things into focus for me. I have a good friend who talks a lot about process vs product. Sometimes, it doesn’t matter how crappy the process is because the product is so good. And sometimes, the process is so crappy that it totally sours the product. Or the product isn’t super great but you have lots of fun working on it. In the case of Dogfight, we ended up with a good product, but the process sucked.

Going through this made me realize that I’m really, really over committing myself to projects that aren’t challenging and fulfilling. Yes, the music for this show was amazing, and I’m really glad I got to sing it, but I’m not sure that all the time I spent being stressed out, frustrated, and anxious was really worth it. Not to mention all of the time spent driving to and from Stowe, and the money I spent on gas, costume pieces, and makeup. Maybe it’s not for me to say, but I feel like I’m ready to be consistently performing at a higher level, and not just taking every opportunity that comes my way. At Stowe, I’m a big fish in a tiny pond, but I feel like I’m capable of being a medium-to-big fish in a bigger pond.

Unfortunately, this decision that my time and talent are worth more is coming a bit late, in the sense that I’m likely on the cusp of taking a fairly long break from performing in order to try and start a family. All I can hope is that there are better opportunities for me when I get back to it. I’m also already feeling the FOMO for all of the shows I may miss due to pregnancy and having a child. Expect a post expanding on this soon.

Until the next audition, I definitely plan to do all I can to keep improving. It’s really expensive, but I’m hoping to get back to voice lessons this fall, and maybe a dance class too. In order to do CrossFit, voice lessons, and dance classes, I will definitely need to do some pretty serious budget-trimming, but I’m ready to make the commitment, both in time and money, to things I’m passionate about.

On that note, as I teased in my July wrap up post, I have officially joined the PR and Development Committee for Lyric Theatre Company. I’ve been doing shows with them since 2002, and while I genuinely love and appreciate the organization for all it has given me and the community, there are of course things about how they operate that I think could be better. And rather than just bitching about it, I think it’s time I get more involved and actually work within the organization to help make it better. It will be nice to maintain an active role in the organization even if I’m not able to perform for a while.

Friday Free-For-All – 08/04/17

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Holy crap it’s August. I mean, seriously. I know I say this pretty much every month, but I feel like July didn’t even really happen. I’m not happy about the fact that summer is almost over already. Boooooo.

It’s the last week of shows for Dogfight. We’ve got one tonight, and one more tomorrow. This show ending is even more bittersweet than usual. Bitter because I love the music and show so much, and because this may be my last show for quite some time if we get pregnant. Sweet because the rehearsal process was so frustrating, and I’m EXHAUSTED from doing two shows in a row. I’m just trying to enjoy every last minute. On that note…

My bestie and her husband are coming to see the show tomorrow! Mandy and Vinny live in Jersey, so I only get to see them once or twice a year. They’re making the 6+ hour trek up to see Dogfight tomorrow night and I’m so excited and so grateful. I can’t wait to see them!

Ben is officially on the last leg of his whirlwind summer tour. He’s currently in Prague visiting his sister Emily, and he’ll be home for good on the 10th. And I can’t. Freaking. Wait. Of course I’m happy that he got to enjoy his summer break and have lots of adventures, but I missed him! And I’m also very excited to go get pre-approved for a mortgage and start house hunting in earnest. Whee!

I know this is really silly, but I have recently had a delightful string of celebrity interactions on Twitter and Instagram. Or, people I consider celebrities. Specifically, Broadway stars. One of my idols, Stephanie J Block, replied to my tweet about her upcoming Live from Lincoln Center performance. Caesar Samoyoa, a member of the cast of Come From Away, replied to my response to his tweet about the new immersive Star Wars experience coming to WDW. And Mamie Parris, who is playing Grizabella in Cats on Broadway, liked a comment I made on one of her Instagram photos. It’s SO INDESCRIBABLY CHEESY, I know, but I love it nonetheless.

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Happy Friday!

 

 

July 2017 Wrap Up

CrossFit
I am missing CrossFit fiercely at the moment. I only made it to 5 classes this month, which I think is a record low since I started. I probably should have prorated my membership for July, but by the time I thought of it, it was too late. And honestly, I truly thought I’d go more. Ah well.

I’m really ready and excited to get back to going to class regularly once Dogfight wraps up. I think I can re-commit to going to the 5 pm class M-W-F like I was during 9-5 rehearsals, no excuses.

Running
In spite of how busy I was, this was actually a decent running month. I got in 6 runs for a total of 29 miles, including two 6+ mile long runs. Until July, I hadn’t run more than 5 miles since November 2016, so I consider that a win.

I’m still hoping to run the Charlotte Covered Bridges Half Marathon on September 9, but it will totally depend on two things: 1) not blowing my August budget, and 2) completing at least one 10+ mile long run. Both of those things are doable, I just need to make the race a priority. And with Dogfight wrapping up in a few days, I will be WAY less busy.

Theatre
I’ve gotten through two weeks of shows for Dogfight the musical, and tonight kicks off the third and final week of performances. I’m excited because lots of people I know will be coming this week, including my aunt and cousin, and my best friend and her husband who are driving up from New Jersey for the weekend.

You can expect a longer post expanding on this next week, but in short I’ll say that this show has made me think A LOT about my priorities when it comes to theatre and performing. I am more than ready for a break after doing two shows in a row, but also have some FOMO settling in because this may be my last show for quite some time if our plans to get pregnant soon come to fruition.

Also, I’m strongly considering joining one of the various committees for Lyric Theatre. They are without a doubt the largest, most well-funded, best organized community theatre organization in my area, and if I can’t be on stage, I’d love to stay involved in other ways and help to make some changes and improvements that I’ve seen a need for over my 10+ years being involved. I’d like to join either the Membership or Development committees, and plan to reach out to the heads of both to find out when they meet and what responsibilities I could expect. Stay tuned!

Highlight
I think my favorite day this month was the 4th of July. I got to be in the Stowe parade, and then spent the day with my new good friends, Brita and Doug. They plied me with delicious cider and tasty food, we chatted, I got a sunburn, and we watched the fireworks. If it hadn’t been for them, I likely would have spent the day at home, missing Ben. Instead, I had a really fun day, and solidified some new friendships that I’m really excited about.

Lowlight
If I’m counting correctly, I only saw Ben seven total days this month. It was definitely hard to be apart so much, but I’m grateful that for much of the time he was gone, I was very busy with the show, so it wasn’t as bad as it could have been. And now he’s on the final leg of his crazy travel schedule, and all will be well.

July Goals
As a refresher, my goals for July were:

  • Stick to “no booze Monday-Thursday” rule–yes
  • Go to CF at least twice a week–no

Unfortunately, this month just kicked my ass. I was so busy I barely had time to eat full meals let alone get to CF more than a handful of times. Still, I’m impressed with what I managed, particularly sticking to my no booze rule, and adding in the “no treats” piece as well. Surprisingly, I’m having a fairly easy time sticking to my guns on those rules, and not feeling like I’m missing out on anything. For instance, there were donuts in the kitchen at work yesterday, and I didn’t have one. If you know me, you know that is some SERIOUS will power.

August Goals

  • Stick to “no booze and no treats Monday-Thursday” rule
  • Go to CF at least twice a week, preferably three
  • Run at least twice a week

Nothing too crazy for August. Mostly just trying to re-establish “normal” after a month of insanity. It will be nice to get back to a routine, not to mention eating regular meals at home again!

Does it usually take you a while to get back to “normal” after a busy period, or do you just jump right back in?

Gearing Up For Show Week #2

Hey friends! I have gotten lots of sleep, exercise, and Ben time since last Wednesday’s post, and I’m feeling much more like myself.

The first week of shows was a bit rocky, but by the fourth show on Saturday it felt like we’d found our stride. I was completely exhausted after 7 straight days of rehearsals and shows, but I had all day Sunday off, plus Monday and Tuesday evenings.

On Sunday, I got out for a 10k long run (which I live blogged in my IG stories, which seemed to be a hit), and then Ben and I spent the afternoon hiking a steep trail on Mt. Mansfield. We got creemees on the way home, and had a nice supper with his folks before lights out at 9:30 pm.

Monday night was another restful night, with a roast chicken dinner and Rogue One on Netflix before another early bedtime.

Last night I hit up my first CrossFit class in almost two weeks, and then Ben and I did one more date night before he takes off on the second-to-last trip of the summer. We went to our member’s club, St. John’s Club, for an al fresco dinner on the patio, and then watched Sherlock together in our PJs. It was easy, cheap, and a perfect way to spend our last night together before he heads off for another week and a half.

Tonight kicks off the second weekend of shows for Dogfight, and after taking several days of vocal rest, I’m feeling ready to get back on stage. Even though I didn’t expect it to, this show has felt every bit as vocally demanding as Chess, even though the style of singing is a lot less difficult. Maybe it’s because I have more lines? Who knows. Regardless, I’m ready to kick some ass tonight.

Isn’t it amazing what some extra sleep and down time can do?