New Year, New Challenges

Let’s just cut to the chase, shall we?

Baby Girl Drew due June 24, 2018!

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Sorry for the terrible, cliche bathroom mirror selfie!

SURPRISE! You thought this was just a (spectacularly late) 2018 goals/resolutions post, didn’t you?

I’m betting that many of you may have already suspected this news based on my plethora of early bedtimes, the greatly reduced workout schedule, and the lack of alcohol references around here lately (this was also a dead giveaway to many friends and relatives!), but it was time to officially let the cat out of the bag.

I waited a long time to do any social media announcements for many reasons. First and foremost is the fact that I’m not planning to come back to work after the baby is born. I wanted to chose the time and manner of revealing my pregnancy and plans to my bosses very carefully. I am “friends” on Facebook and Instagram with a number of my colleagues, and I didn’t want the news to work its way through the grapevine. Thankfully, my bosses are very supportive of my decision, and I’m working with them to ensure business continuity after I leave.

Secondly, I was enjoying just being myself. Once people know you’re pregnant, it seems like that’s all anyone wants to talk about anymore, like it’s the only way people know how to relate to you. People start calling you “mama” and begin giving you all kinds of unsolicited advice and EVERYTHING is about the baby; you kind of lose your sense of self. I’ve already been feeling that with some of my friends and family, so it was nice to just be “Rae” to the online world for a while longer.

The last reason I was reluctant to share is that being pregnant is just plain terrifying. Joyful and exciting, yes, but also terrifying. Every second of every day I worry about that little baby in there. Any lessening or changing of pregnancy symptoms causes me to worry there might be something wrong. I didn’t start showing until pretty late and was worried that the baby wasn’t growing. Waiting for genetic testing results was excruciating. I haven’t definitively felt the baby move yet, which makes me nervous even though it’s totally normal. I was scared to share the good news and then possibly have to share bad news too if something happened. However, we had our big 20 week ultrasound and anatomy scan last night and everything looks great, so I finally felt comfortable sharing with a larger circle. It’s been REALLY hard keeping this secret from all of you, and I’m glad to finally be able to share!

There will likely be a lot of pregnancy posts around here going forward, but I don’t intend for this to become a “mommy blog.” This blog has always been a place to share what’s going on in my life, and my pregnancy and child will obviously feature largely in my life going forward. And of course I plan to continue sharing fitness adventures, particularly because staying active while pregnant/momming can be so challenging.

Before closing, I’d just like to briefly recognize that we are so, so fortunate that we succeeded in getting pregnant so quickly and easily. I know this is not the case for so many couples who want children, and my heart goes out to all those in the TTC community.

 

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