Thinking Out Loud – Chasing My Passions

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Linking up with Amanda from Running with Spoons again this Thursday, to continue my series of non-running related posts.

Last Thursday, I wrote a lot about stuff not at all related to running. My post was all about singing, and staying vocally healthy. As I teased last week, the careful consideration that I have been bringing to my theater activities has got some wheels turning about chasing my passions.

I gave up the dream of performing for a living a long time ago; I’m not courageous enough to deal with the constant rejection, and I like having a steady paycheck. But performing is still something I’m incredibly passionate about, and would like to do more of, on a more professional scale. Newsflash: I don’t get paid for any of the shows I do right now (although I have been in the past); they’ve all been purely volunteer-based, which is great, but I think I’m capable of more. Just like with running, I’d like to push myself outside my comfort zone and see where it gets me. I want to dedicate more of my time and money to things like voice lessons, dance lessons, and acting classes.

Vermont may be small, but there are some great professional theater companies that I’ve always wanted to work with, but have been too chicken to try. Even though I’ve been doing this since I was 9 years old, I’m straight up terrified of auditioning. I get nervous and stressed out and I’m an emotional wreck. I’m scared of failing, so I won’t try. And that’s crap. I’m tired of not doing what I want to do because fear of failure is holding me back.

I think if Chess goes well, it’s going to give a lot of local theater people a chance to see me in a new way. I’ve never had a leading role in a show in this area, and I’m hopeful that this increased exposure will lead to more connections and opportunities.

A lot of these feelings about pushing beyond my comfort zone and chasing my passion can also be applied to my running/fitness and long-term career goals, but that’s a post for next Thursday ūüėČ

Are you chasing a passion that’s not related to running?

Legally Blonde Wrap Up

In lieu of a Manic Monday post (let’s be real, I didn’t do any traditional workouts last week), I thought it would be fun to a little post about Legally Blonde, with some pictures.

Overall, this was an awesome experience. I hadn’t worked with Lyric Theatre Company since I was a part of Seussical the Musical back in 2007. I got to reconnect with some old friends, as well as make new ones. While time management during the rehearsal process was an issue, and the 13 hour technical rehearsal made it hard to remember why I signed up for this, it was an AWESOME show, and I’m so happy I was a part of it. We sold out almost every single one of 5 performances, the audiences loved us, and we just had SO.MUCH.FUN performing. Of course, I’m equally happy that it’s now over and my life can go back to normal for a little while. At least, until Chess rehearsals start on May 20. Glutton for punishment? Perhaps.

In the meantime, I’m going to really try to pull myself together and focus on all of the things I’ve been neglecting lately due to the show. I have a mountain of laundry that needs to be washed, a car that looks like a hobo has been living in it, and a full-blown sugar addiction relapse to deal with. Stay tuned for another post later this week about the plan post Legally Blonde.

And now, what you really wanted to see… pictures of me getting my musical theatre on!

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Manic Monday – 04/06/15

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Well, here we are–show week for Legally Blonde! It feels like just yesterday that I was excitedly announcing I’d been cast, and how much I was looking forward to it. Yikes! This past week was busy, and this coming week will be even more so. I’m trying to squeeze in activity where I can, but honestly, rehearsals are a workout in and of themselves, so I don’t feel bad about letting my normal routine go out the window. Especially since I had a 13 hour rehearsal yesterday and didn’t get to bed until 1 am. Ouch.

Monday 03/30/15: ¬†Lunchtime walk–49 minutes, 3.18 miles.¬†The weather was cold and gray and spitting snow, but it was still nice to get out of the office and get my body moving. We also did a full run-through of the show, so I did plenty of dancing and jumping rope at rehearsal.

Tuesday 03/31/15: ¬†Lunchtime walk–49 minutes, 3.47 miles.¬†It was still pretty cold, but the sun was out, so I was able to soak up some much-needed vitamin D. I also did 10 push ups, 10 triceps dips, a 30 second plank, and a 30 second plank on each side before bed.

Wednesday 04/01/15: ¬†Rest Day. ¬†Work was nutty, so I was scrambling to get lunch on my break, and wasn’t able to get my walk in. I did do some shopping and walking around after work, though. And of course, dancing and jumping rope at Legally Blonde rehearsal.

Thursday 04/02/15: ¬†Rest Day.¬†I just didn’t feel like doing anything other than eating and sitting during lunch, so I didn’t. I ended up going to bed at 8:45 pm. I think I was just feeling super run down.

Friday 04/03/15:  Rest Day. This was my awesome evening off. I had a few drinks with Ben and my in-laws, and went to bed at 10 pm. 

Saturday 04/04/15:  Rest Day. This was a mostly relaxing day. The only sour note was driving in to town (about 45 minutes) only to find out that the scheduled rehearsal had been cancelled while I was driving in. Boo. But Ben and I made the best of it by having an impromptu date night of pizza and beer. Then I want home, changed into my PJs, and watched movies for a while before bed.

Sunday 04/05/15: ¬†Tech Day.¬†This was a looooong and frustrating day. Lots of hurry up and wait. Lots of just plain wait. Lots of frayed tempers and punchy, overtired laughter. I got to the theater at 11 am and didn’t leave until 12 am.¬†

I’m gonna be honest, when my alarm went off this morning, I kind of wanted to die. I’m clutching my large Dunkies iced coffee and praying for the strength to make it through today without physically harming anyone. And I get to go back to the theater at 5:30 and do it all over again. I’m trying to remind myself that I signed up for this, that this is in fact something I love to do, and just keep a positive attitude.

The focus for this week is staying healthy. Eating as well as I can, sleeping as much as I can, and hydrating like a BOSS. The theater is more dry than the Sahara, I swear it just sucks the moisture right out of you. The good news is, the end is in sight. After Sunday, I’ll have a glorious month and a half free from rehearsals, so I can get back to running, hit up some Body Pump classes, and generally get back on track.

Who else is riding the Struggle Bus this morning?¬†I’m driving it…

Friday Free-For-All – 04/03/15

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This will be my first Friday night off since January! Because rehearsals have been going so well recently, the artistic team decided to give us the night off before we move into the big theater this weekend and go into crazy, rehearsal every night mode. I can’t even tell you how excited I am to just GO HOME after work tonight and hang out. I’m going to put my PJs on immediately and veg out all night. Yay! Speaking of rehearsals…

This weekend kicks off¬†“Hell Week.” In the theater world, the week before a show opens is officially known as Tech Week. This is when you add all the technical elements like costumes, lighting, sound etc to the performance. It’s a LOT of work–lots of late nights, frayed tempers, and frustration. This causes it to be known unofficially as “Hell Week.” I don’t anticipate getting much sleep next week. And workouts? Ha! I’ll be lucky if I have time to eat.

It’s warm today! In the mid-fifties! Kind of sunny!¬†Hopefully this will melt the remaining snow and really kick spring off. Of course, it’s supposed to be cold again this weekend, sooo…

What have you got planned for the weekend?

How’s the weather where you are?

I can’t, I have to run…

I haven’t done a workout since my run on Monday. ¬†Strangely, I don’t feel that guilty or worried about it. ¬†I’ve had a nice week. ¬†I got to have dinner with Ben’s parents, relax at home with my kitten while she recovered from surgery, and had a date night with Ben since he’s going to be gone all weekend. ¬†I love running and I fully intend to keep up with my training and goals, but I also don’t want to sacrifice other things I love to do and let running become all-consuming.

i-can-t-i-have-rehearsal_designI was a theater major in college, and have been involved with the performing arts since I was 9 years old. ¬†For a long time, theater and theater-related activities consumed my life. ¬†I didn’t do any extra-curricular activities except drama and chorus until senior year of high school, at which point I joined dance team (hello, still performing) and the track team as a thrower (while still doing chorus and drama). ¬†During my college years, I was always either in class, working, rehearsing, or driving to rehearsals all over the northern part of the state. ¬†I’ve missed birthday parties, family vacations… Hell, I even missed my own high school graduation because I was at a theater internship. ¬†While at the time I thought I was living the dream, and I had some really amazing experiences, I look back now on some of the things I missed and I’m like, Damn, was it worth it? ¬†Maybe, maybe not. ¬†And now, even though I still desperately love theater, I’m reluctant to get involved in a show because of the required time commitment.

So I don’t want running to be like that. ¬†I don’t want to miss fun events just so I can hit the gym. ¬†I don’t want to go to bed at 9 every night so I can wake up at the crack of dawn and run. ¬†I don’t want to arrange my whole life around running like I did with theater. ¬†I don’t want to trade “I can’t, I have rehearsal” for “I can’t, I have to run.” ¬†And that’s ok. ¬†I know this. ¬†Running is fun. ¬†It makes me feel strong and sexy and powerful. ¬†I’m not trying to become an elite here, so I don’t have to be “in training” all the time. ¬†It’s possible to find balance, and that’s what I intend to do.